so sick

steve woke up a couple weeks ago at 1 am in crazy pain. pain like i have never seen him in before. austin took him to the er and he was told he had a kidney stone.  after four hours, he was able to come home. luckily he passed it quickly, but was wiped out for a couple days afterwards.

these past 7 months have been rough for us...physically, medically, and then because of all of that...financially. since january, crosby has had four ear infections, pink eye, and strep throat. jack had a fluke allergic reaction (we think it was from pine). i've had strep throat. steve had bronchitis and an upper respitory infection and now a kidney stone. and for reasons too long for me to explain here, we have really shitty health insurance. the kind of health insurance that leaves us paying $400 towards a well child visit. the bills are piling up. between rearranging work schedules, caring for sick kids, and figuring out how we're going to pay the bills, i'm feeling defeated. i think to myself (or outloud to my mom), "does it ever end?" and i guess it doesn't. it's life. and i get that. but i'm feeling weighed down. feeling like we could use a break. some time to catch up.